A Sparkle of…

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Can we design our dreams,
Express our thoughts…
(Never to get lost)
Should we submit to hope, for a modest moment
For pain to dissolve
(Some might say submit to faith)

Can we build that future,
With passion, fulfilling our desires
While being loved,
With heart and soul, grateful to the bone

Experience kindness, a feeling of empathy,
An act with dignity…
(So grateful you are here)
Appease, looking for peace,
Embracing your presence
(Casting eyes to the future)
I am shedding that pain, trying to…
(Some day) … (Soon)
Dropping these shackles,
(Fulfilling our destiny or some kind…)
To be released from this torment,

We shall stay true,
Committed to life… Together…

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A Story of…

A Story of…

Oh why this feeling, once more
Supposed to be something from the past
Never to appear again,
So I thought…

Spikes are back in the head, every day
A constant state of pain
Commencing at the break of dawn,
So I sense…

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Is it worry?
Is it strain?
Or just another chapter in this game?

Must hold on
To the small things that matter,
Must be thankful
For what I receive and have,
And above all…
Must cherish and respect
Those close and care,

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My heart belongs to you,
My wealth is my love for you,

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While you calm my spirit with your kisses
And ease the discomfort with your touch
I search for the source
Hidden in the depths of my soul…

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Hashtag

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Fear to become a hashtag #fear
Ambition to be a hashtag #ambition
Fame through a hashtag #fame

Your existence #myexistence
Your life #mylife
Your values #myvalues
Your world #myworld

All reduced to a hashtag #I_exist

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Dance of Love

A breath of air,
Gently
Passes by your ear.
You make a sound,
Approving
Soft breeze of mild air.

A slight touch,
Caring
Twinkling your shoulder.
You breath in and out,
Intense
Absorbing the touch.

Fingers move up and down,
Playful
Touching your arm
You answer,
Frolic
Teasing the back of my hand

A loving kiss,
Softly
In your neck, by your ear.
You turn and lips reach out,
Wilfully
Embracing a passionate kiss.

A touch on your back,
Wanting
Playing with your senses.
You move your leg over mine,
Signalling
We do the dance of love

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For eternity…

For my Ice Queen,
When shivering cold takes hold of your body
For my Hot Thing,
When heat chases away that cold

I feel you close to me,
While your breath touches my skin
I feel you touching me,
While my love is set for eternity…

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Hurting

Why do we hurt the ones we love most?
Words of apologies should flood the gates,
Yet I have nothing to say…

Feelings of embarrassment, for sure…
Walking in a void, lost
Abandoned myself, forlorn…

Feelings of sadness, mostly that…
Oh yes, it is my own doing
Trapped in myself, lonely…

How do we find trust again?
When suspicion is ever present…
How do I come back to sanity?
While I drown in gloomy emotions…

Only with you, my dear…
Only together…
Only us…

Dreaming – Sound asleep

Technology advances,
Speed, faster, go go go
No stopping us anymore

Analogue
Signals, under pressure
Transmission in the air
Coming closer,
Remember those times
Radio waves hitting the living room
Voices and laughter,
Everywhere we listen,
Magic is surrounding us,
Emotions with people in tears

Automation
Deciding now, more pressure
Self harming flow,
Humanity under control
No control, lost control…
Standard view on movement
Situations being absorbed
Adapting to the now, future
Ignoring the then
So long, creature of faith

Robots in our sight,
March of the machines
Ignoring our needs and feeding our greed
Oh, where do we go
Loosing our sense of purpose,
Is there any purpose?
So long, you miserable beast
Keep moving away,
Understanding those changes, you need…
Reflecting on those waves of the past

Hearts are drawn closer
We lost our desire
We missed our choice
We ignored the signals
Hearts became cold
Greed took it all
Leaving us behind with…
Do we still have sense of purpose?
Do we still have any values?

There is…

There is no doubt
Never was and never will be

There is some fear
The path to take is never certain

There is no hesitation
The feelings are true and clear

There might be confusion
Some things will clear in time

There is no distrust
Soulmates for life, right

There is pain
Yes, it hurts both ways

There is love
Unconditioned and more

There is friendship
Honest and pure

There is us
United and more…

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Decisions

Expect the unexpected… so they say… I guess it means be ready for change. Be ready for things to happen and not necessarily for the good. Do we really have to? Is life so easily disrupted if you do not expect the unexpected? Even when you have that mindset of expecting the unexpected, unexpected things do happen and will happen. You never really can plan it, right?

There are moments that those unexpected things have a huge impact on what comes next in your life. You seek for something different, seek answers to questions you have and without realising you stepped into a roller coaster going high speed along a track to end where you never thought you would be. Nothing is the same. Everything is different… or so it seems…

We all make mistakes. We all do things planned or unplanned that seem right at the time, but end up being wrong. We atone for our mistakes. We say sorry if those mistakes affect people you care. No matter what you do, no matter how much you think about it, you will have to make decisions and those decisions affect people not just in a good way. Decisions can hurt people. They can hurt people you care about, you love. They can hurt people you hold dear, you like no matter how long you actually know them.

The road is never straight. Even when the design is straight, traveling on the road is never on a straight line. It swirls, it bends, it cries, it climbs, it descends… Each step forward makes you leave behind something and at the same time it gathers more experience to take with you. Sometimes it is hard to leave something behind. Sometimes it is easy. Sometimes you loose something on the way and wish you didn’t. Sometimes you gain something or pick something up. That something is sometimes good and sometimes a burden.

Everything that happens when traveling the road has a purpose. We know that if we want to know it. We accept it more easily when it is good things happening to us. We have it more difficult to accept when things happen that are hard. Everything is an experience we learn from, or better said should learn from. We have the power to make the decisions in our lives if we want to. Every decision you take is yours to take and yours to carry with you. They are part of making you who you are as a person.

I am making decisions right now. Some of them scare me. Some of them give me a feeling of relieve, that finally I made them. Some decisions make me sad. Every decision though, is my responsibility and only I am accountable for them. No matter the impact on others, I carry the responsibility with me down on the road of the next chapter of my life. The next 1 to 2 years will be hard but with the love I receive I trust that all will be good. I trust in us. Thank you for your trust.

Last Nights Experience…

Transmit that a poem or a song
Let me hear that voice once again
Touching my heart in a moment of hope,
Penetrating my soul with sentiment, just now
Yes, I am scared, ooh yes
I tremble at the thought of walking alone

And we move on to the next…

My experience is troubled
With all the emotions running loose
Can I find some peace now
Some hope, presented in a touch
Yes, I am afraid, ooh yes
I tremble at the thought of feeling alone

And we move on to the next…

I walked out into the soaking rain
Experiences exchanged, surreal, real
How much time do I have to absorb this moment?
To process this flood of emotions
Yes, I feel humbled, ooh yes
I look into the lights and know that the future is bright

And we move on to the next… song