2 Verses on Transcendence

Evolution

Deep feelings track the mind
Following intuition,
Passing by a sign…
Following impulse,
Acting by instinct…
Following a hunch,
Moving slowly closer…

Am I making progress?
Moving beyond that place,
Surpassing the current world,
Ascending into a new state,
Advancing slowly,
Transcending beyond my imagination…

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Formless

Formless to Form
Some wisdom about existence…
Form to Formless

Growing from formless to form
Experience of a beginning
Evolving from form to formless
Witness of an ending

Existence experienced in the form
A conscious mind

Existence experienced in the formless
Uncharted space

Growing from form to formless
Experience of an ending
Evolving from formless to form
Witnessing a beginning?

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Today

Today I find myself in a state of rest,
Where the window view looks inviting,
And light is not hurting my senses,
No need to find a place to hide in the dark…

I sense a feeling of relief,
A moment of dreaming,
Surrounded by love and care,
Caught by a sense of happy feelings…

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Version 2

Coming Home

Hours past by…
Days gone by…

Mentally worn,
But peace of mind found
With a bleeding heart,
And a mind torn.

Pieces come together,
Jigsaws to be matched
Love is found, Never lost

Time was needed,
to heal this pain…
Time was required,
to correct the path

Help still required,
from you, my love
Help still needed,
by you, my friend

Help is welcomed
by you, my beloved
Help is accepted,
from you, my life

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Searching

Calling for you,
Deep down there,
In the corner of that soul,
Sensing the pain,
and the grief,
A bleeding heart,
That does not leave stains in the snow
Buried deep,
Where it feels,
You are not in control of your thoughts anymore

Go away… Leave me alone… PAIN
Stay out of my head… PAIN
You are not welcome anymore… PAIN

“Who would have thought you would try to get back in control?”

I am here… Fighting… 
…….. PAIN ………
Battling the pain away, igniting the fire…

“Who are you to think… (??)”

My thoughts are mine!
My feelings are mine!

Somewhere there is an end point,
Take my hand,
Guide me through this (     )
Hold me in your arms,
Safe to be here,
Protected from (    )
Somewhere there is a starting point…

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Dreaming – Sound asleep

Technology advances,
Speed, faster, go go go
No stopping us anymore

Analogue
Signals, under pressure
Transmission in the air
Coming closer,
Remember those times
Radio waves hitting the living room
Voices and laughter,
Everywhere we listen,
Magic is surrounding us,
Emotions with people in tears

Automation
Deciding now, more pressure
Self harming flow,
Humanity under control
No control, lost control…
Standard view on movement
Situations being absorbed
Adapting to the now, future
Ignoring the then
So long, creature of faith

Robots in our sight,
March of the machines
Ignoring our needs and feeding our greed
Oh, where do we go
Loosing our sense of purpose,
Is there any purpose?
So long, you miserable beast
Keep moving away,
Understanding those changes, you need…
Reflecting on those waves of the past

Hearts are drawn closer
We lost our desire
We missed our choice
We ignored the signals
Hearts became cold
Greed took it all
Leaving us behind with…
Do we still have sense of purpose?
Do we still have any values?

Decisions

Expect the unexpected… so they say… I guess it means be ready for change. Be ready for things to happen and not necessarily for the good. Do we really have to? Is life so easily disrupted if you do not expect the unexpected? Even when you have that mindset of expecting the unexpected, unexpected things do happen and will happen. You never really can plan it, right?

There are moments that those unexpected things have a huge impact on what comes next in your life. You seek for something different, seek answers to questions you have and without realising you stepped into a roller coaster going high speed along a track to end where you never thought you would be. Nothing is the same. Everything is different… or so it seems…

We all make mistakes. We all do things planned or unplanned that seem right at the time, but end up being wrong. We atone for our mistakes. We say sorry if those mistakes affect people you care. No matter what you do, no matter how much you think about it, you will have to make decisions and those decisions affect people not just in a good way. Decisions can hurt people. They can hurt people you care about, you love. They can hurt people you hold dear, you like no matter how long you actually know them.

The road is never straight. Even when the design is straight, traveling on the road is never on a straight line. It swirls, it bends, it cries, it climbs, it descends… Each step forward makes you leave behind something and at the same time it gathers more experience to take with you. Sometimes it is hard to leave something behind. Sometimes it is easy. Sometimes you loose something on the way and wish you didn’t. Sometimes you gain something or pick something up. That something is sometimes good and sometimes a burden.

Everything that happens when traveling the road has a purpose. We know that if we want to know it. We accept it more easily when it is good things happening to us. We have it more difficult to accept when things happen that are hard. Everything is an experience we learn from, or better said should learn from. We have the power to make the decisions in our lives if we want to. Every decision you take is yours to take and yours to carry with you. They are part of making you who you are as a person.

I am making decisions right now. Some of them scare me. Some of them give me a feeling of relieve, that finally I made them. Some decisions make me sad. Every decision though, is my responsibility and only I am accountable for them. No matter the impact on others, I carry the responsibility with me down on the road of the next chapter of my life. The next 1 to 2 years will be hard but with the love I receive I trust that all will be good. I trust in us. Thank you for your trust.